TUBING

Throughout this horribly busy, horribly freezing winter we've had, we did make it tubing once.

Thanks to Rex and Stephanie Weston. Rex had just gotten a couple of new snow machines, and wanted to go tubing, so they were nice enough to invite us along.

After school one night, we headed out to Carter and found us a good tubing hill. One that was only fun because we had snow machines. On foot, it would not have been so fun. I know this because on the way up the very first time, Kyle dumped me halfway up the hill. So I had to hoof it the rest of the way. The snow machines were defiantly the preferred way of transportation.

Kyle just read this and said that I should have hung on.

In my defense, I was holding on to my camera with one arm, and the tube with another. Had he warned me that he was about to gun it, I would have held on tighter, but I got no warning. Just gunned and dumped!

The crew:

Rex, Brock, Stephanie, Avrie, Kyle, Kenadee and Ashtyn

Kyle

Stephanie and Brock

Avrie and I. I realized how unprepared for anything snowy I am. You think a girl from Wyoming would be set with snow gear. . . not this girl!

Ash - who was a lot braver than I thought she would be. She jumped on the tube and headed down the steep hill with no problems.

Rex with one of the new snow machines.

Kenadee - who is always a trooper even without snow pants herself. We did have some, but they have gotten lost somewhere along the winter.

It was quite a fun evening!

I'm Still Kickin'

Don't know if anyone is still lookin', but I'm still kickin'.

Man . . . did that last post not want to get moved off it's pedestal! I tried numerous times to post something else, but was having major computer troubles, and I didn't have the time to sit down and figure it out.

We did get moved. The house is not done, but it's livable. Right now, I just needed livable. I got different Internet, and it seems to be working better. Hopefully I can keep up now.

I have to say THANKS to everyone who left such great comments on the last post. It really helped to know people cared:) It was one of the worst winters I have had, and the most hopeless I have been. I have a little more hope now, and it's amazing what a little hope can do for ya. But again, thanks to everyone who cared enough to leave a comment. They helped so much!

I did get a few picture developed FINALLY! Here's a few . . .

OH! BTW my friend Kris is the one who made the hats and scarves for the girls for Christmas. They absolutely LOVE them!!

LOSER MONSTER

I ran, I hid, I tried to allude, but in the end it found me, pounced and pinned me to the ground. Not a pretty site. If you've never been pounced on by the loser monster, feel very lucky. It's not something I wish on anyone :)

So here I lay under the huge weight of this ugly monster, wracking my brain to figure out how to move this huge beast off of me. For the life of me I have not been able to figure it out (I do think I have been able to move up to my hands and knees because I can joke about it now).

Think of when Mr. Incredible was running out of the "secret computer room", and was getting pelted with those little, black, rubber balls. They kept growing until even Mr. Incredible wasn't strong enough to keep going. I had every aspect of life come at me all at once, latch on, and blow up into such huge weight that I couldn't stand up any longer.

I'm not proud I let it all get to me, in fact I think that is one of the badges that the monster is proudly wearing . Come to think of it, it looks pretty good in all of the badges it has pinned to it's chest. There are many. I know there are many people going through much worse things then me, and handling it much better (another badge). I have looked around, and I know I am so blessed, but still can't hardly breath (I think I see that one pinned next to the "Horrible Mother" badge. Oh nope, it's next to the "Can't get anywhere on time" badge).

Finally to get through the day I had to shut down. I couldn't talk to anyone, didn't want to go any where or see anyone. Only because I seemed to disappoint everyone I saw. "Sorry we can't do this" or "I meant to call, and forgot" or "We can't have friends over today. We have to be able to see the floor before friends can come over" or "I really wish I could, but can't" or "No we are still not done with the house. Would you quit laughing?" or " I know I should be doing this, but my goal was to get out of bed today, and not go back until bedtime. And that was about all I can handle today". I could go on. . .

Anyway, it's a miserable, yucky place to be. I really never thought that I would be here, and had always hoped I could handle life. Not really the case right now.

It is a heavy, depressing monster to be carrying around. I hope to one day be rid of it, but the longer it stays on, the less I feel like I can be rid of it.

If any one has been pounced on, and been able to get rid of this ugly monster, I could use a few pointers ;)

For anyone else . . . It seems to be pretty attached to me, so you won't have to worry about it finding you and pouncing anytime soon:)

And, once (or if) I figure out how to coax it off my back, I can only hope to help others rid themselves of the monster as soon as possible.

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I meant to post sooner, but my computer has been acting up. It keeps "timing out" when ever I have tried to post or comment on anyone else's. I have tried to comment, but can't. So please don't think I don't care. I don't want to add that badge to the pile. I have run every test I have, but still can't get my computer to work well. I will keep trying.
And I can't get my spell checker to work. Sorry to all of the English pros out there. My grammar and spelling really stink.

BLECK:[

I think that is my word for Valentine's Day.

Better yet . . . I think that is my word for life right now.

Support Group

OK, Support Groupers - whoever you may be. I have never been in a support group, don't really know what you do in one, but I have a challange. I think it is always good to laugh.



So . . .





When was the last time you tried to stand on your head?

Now hear me out. I really tried this, and it was pretty sad. But . . . just thinking about how funny I looked, and that others might be trying it as well, made me laugh pretty hard. It felt really nice. So give it a try! You just might find yourself having a good laugh too.

The Manors

Kirk and Kim were nice enough to let me practice on them. I was so excited when the pictures actually turned out, and I didn't completely screw them up. They are so cute together, and were really great to work with. Thanks for being such great sports!

{LOVE}

Kim tagged me awhile ago. Sorry it took me so long to get to it.

List 5 reasons why I love Kyle . . .

This was kinda hard because I don't really like him most of the time. Just Jokin' hun! I SOOOOO love you :)

1. TRUST: This was one of the biggest reasons that I married him. You can love someone like crazy, but if you don't trust them, life can be miserable. I trusted him (and still do) with all I am. I trusted that he was always truthful, dedicated, and was as committed to us as I was. I know that no matter how bad life (basicly me) can get sometimes, he would not give up on us.

2. TALENTS: He is one of the most talented people I know. You give him any piece of equipment to run, and he can master it in a very short time. He can run anything from a Trachoe to a screwdriver. He has also built most of our house (and our other house) with his own two hands. From start to finish, he's had his hands in most all of it.

3. QUICK WIT: Most people don't get to see this side of him, but he is very quick witted. He often puts me in my place, and that's not always easy to do. You might be surprised that I love him for that, but it keeps me on my toes. I have to stay quick myself to come up with a comeback.

4. HUMOR: Again, most people don't get to see this side of him, but he cracks me up.

5. HEART: He has got a great heart. He couldn't be the dad he is with out one. He loves his girls more than life, and he is so good with them. He is not scared to teach them "boy" things. He has taught Kenadee to run the Backhoe. He has taght them to build. He takes them shooting with him in the Isuzu (I think that might be their favorite). But . . . he's also not afraid to do "mom" things. He has changed diapers from day one. He has gotten up at night. He has bathed, fed, and I think even done their hair a time or two. He rocks, and reads, and comforts. I know that they know they have a great dad.

I think I need to add one more just because I love him SOOO much!

6. WORK: He is also one of the hardest workers that I know. He has spent most of our married life working a full-time job, and then doing other jobs on the side. I trust that no matter what our situation may be, he will do everything in his power (or work his butt off) to make sure we don't go hungry.

I LOVE Lifehouse

The new music is a tribute to my favorite band. If I had only one concert I could ever go to, I would have to pick them. I have loved them from their very first album. I don't usually get so crazy about music. I like a lot of different kinds, but if I had to pick my favorite . . . like I said . . . it would be them!